I wonder

Will I ever be kind to myself

Or keep beating' me black and blue

Will I ever make a good decision

Or just ones that cut me in two

I know the answer

But I refuse to move

'Cause this is the hell I'm used to

Will I ever be someone I can face

Or am I just stuck bein' a waste

That neon flickers on a half full glass

I keep sayin' this'll be my last

Same night

Same chair

Same ghosts

Smilin' there

Said I'm done

But I do it again

Same damn fight I never win

Old sins drag me back in

I'm a waste of space

Yeah I say it every night

Like I ain't got enough

Goin' wrong in my life

I'm lookin' in the mirror

And I hate my face

'Cause man I swear

I'm nothin' but a waste of space

Some days I feel like the demons are gone

I hope that maybe they moved on

But nah, they come back

Just to remind me of all I lack

Can't seem to outrun them

They're in my head

Screamin' I'm worthless

Sayin' I'm better off dead

I'm a waste of space

Yeah I hear it every night

Part of me knows it ain't right

But I'm too tired to fight

I'm lookin' in the mirror

And I hate my face

'Cause man I swear

I'm nothin' but a waste of space

I don't wanna be me any more

But I don't know how to be anything else

I'm just so tired of bein' myself

I'm tired of hearing' the same thoughts

Tired of living' in this same damn hell

I'm sick of that voice in my head

Sayin' I'll never get well

I'm a waste of space

Yeah I hear it every night

Part of me knows, it ain't right

But I'm just too tired to fight

I'm lookin' in the mirror

And I hate my face

'Cause man I swear

I'm nothin' but a waste of space