Thought I'd be different

Swore I'd be a better man

But sometimes God laughs

When you make plans

Said I'd build a better life

Buryin' my past in the dust

But no matter how far I go

I can't get away from who he was

Ever try runnin

From somethin' you can't escape

No matter how far you get

It's screamin' in your face

I keep tryna beat it

But I never win

'Cause every road I take

Leads back to broke again

I swore that I'd be different

That I'd bury what he did

But no matter how far I go

I'm still that kid

My sink's full of dishes

I let sit

Tellin' myself I'll get to it

But nah

I don't do shit

Always reachin' for the bottle

To numb that ache

And he's right there smilin

With every drink I take

Tryna fix my life

But I've lost all drive

Some days I feel

I'm doin' good stayin' alive

I keep tryna beat it

But I never win

'Cause every road I take

Leads back to broke again

I don't want to be this

But it's who I've always been

Every time I try to change

Those demons pull me back in

I keep tellin' myself I'm different

But most days I don't feel I am

It's gettin' hard to tell

Where I end and they begin

Round and round

I'm stuck on this ride

Too tired to fight

What I keep inside

I'm tired of runnin

From somethin' I'll never escape

No matter how far I get

It's screamin' in my face

Don't know if I'll beat it

Don't know if I'll ever win

'Cause every road I take

Leads back to broke again

Oh, hopin' that I'll be different

That I'll bury what he did

Hopin' that one day

I'll be more than that kid