You don't kick in my door

Or leave any mark

You just visit

When I'm alone in the dark

Like an old flame callin

Just when I'm startin' to feel okay

Sayin"Come on, baby

You know you miss the pain"

You kiss me with poison

And hold me like a vice

Tellin' me peace is for the lucky

I'll never be worth that price

I fuckin' hate that I know you

Worse, I hate that you're right

I wish I could stop reachin' for you

Every fuckin' night

Tryna fight you like a man

You're bringin' out my worst

'Cause you always fuckin' win

You're hidin' in my words

Self-Sabotage

You're a toxic kinda love

Sayin' I'll never be enough

Yeah, I wrestle you

But your ass don't play fair

You're the liar in my head

The devil in my prayers

I keep tryna leave you

But I'm under your spell

Problem is

I fuckin' hate myself

I'll be buildin' somethin' solid

Somethin' that makes me proud

Then your voice gets loud

You're just sittin' there sayin"Who you think you're foolin?

You are who you will always be

You'll never mean nothin' to no one

Not even me

You don't deserve to feel calm, boy

You're only built for the worst

Happy don't fit your ass

Yeah, it looks good

But it'll never fuckin' last"

Self-Sabotage

You're a toxic kinda love

Sayin' I'll never be enough

Yeah, I wrestle you

But your ass don't play fair

You're the liar in my head

The devil in my prayers

I keep tryna leave you

But I'm under your spell

Problem is

I fuckin' hate myself

You talk like you own me

Baby, I'm yours to waste

You're the truth

I'm a joke

I should just learn my place

You're in my head

Callin' me broken

Useless

And only born to lose

I fuckin' hate it

But still I listen

Willin' to take shit from you

Been tryna outrun you

But you ain't on that road

You're the beast in my chest

You're the lump in my throat

You're the liar in my head

The devil in my prayers

I keep tryna leave you

But I'm under your spell

Problem is

I fuckin' hate myself

I fuckin' hate myself

I fuckin' hate myself