Dad said"Let's go to the lake

It's time you learn to swim"

Next thing I knew

He was throwing me in

I was in deep

Way over my head

Panic struck hard

Thought I was good as dead

Clawed for the surface

Gaspin' for air

But his damn fist man

It was waitin' up there

He hit the top of my head

And I was under again

Even breathin' was a game

He didn't want me to win

I saw red man

Ain't gonna lie

Had enough hate in me

To watch the whole world die

Grandma said"Son it won't make you whole

That kinda fire's only gonna burn your soul"

I carried that anger

Like a cocked gun

Each scar screamed

Justice would never fuckin' come

I dreamed of watchin' them beg

I dreamed of watchin' them bleed

I dreamed of payin' back everything done to me

Oh yeah

I dreamed

I saw red man

Ain't gonna lie

Had enough hate in me

To watch the whole world die

Grandma said"Son it won't make you whole

That kinda fire's only gonna burn your soul"

She saw through the hate inside

Stared through the hurt in my eyes

Said"Pain don't get lighter as you pass it around

Devil's there watchin' just hoping you burn it down

Can't beat the darkness

By becoming the same

Let it go son

Walk away from the flames"

I still see red

Ain't gonna lie

But I ain't gonna become what I survived