I'm always feelin' unrested

Always fightin' my own skin

This war inside it never sleeps

Just waits for my will to cave in

I'm tryna be a good man

Hell, I've been tryna be kind

But damn that voice in my head

It just won't fall in line

I've been doin' the work

Knees are bent

Been prayin' overtime

They say faith is easy

That you just gotta believe

Well, belief don't come easy

When you're built from dirt like me

So if you're really listenin

And if I'm worth Your time

I'm down here beggin' for mercy

Tryin' not to lose my damn mind

'Cause man, I can't tell ya

How many fuckin' times a day

I dream of pickin' up that gun

And blowin' myself away

These thoughts, man

I can't drown 'em out

And this quiet, man

It's gettin' way too loud

These damn nights

Are gettin' way too long

I hear that devil every fuckin' night

Always hummin' the same song

So if you're really listenin

And if I'm worth Your time

I'm down here beggin' for mercy

Tryin' not to lose my damn mind

'Cause man, I can't tell ya

How many fuckin' times a day

I dream of pickin' up that gun

And blowin' myself away

I'm sick of this shadow

It's breakin' my damn back

Lord, give me a sign or let me go

I'm tired of livin' like a ghost

So if you're really listenin

And if I'm worth Your time

I'm down here beggin' for mercy

Tryin' not to lose my damn mind

'Cause man, I can't tell ya

How many fuckin' times a day

I dream of pickin' up that gun

And blowin' myself away

They say faith is easy

That you just gotta believe

Well, belief don't come easy

When you're built from dirt like me