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I spent most of my childhood
Tryna stay outta Dad's way
Longing for the moments
When my heart felt okay
Grandpa's love was always true
No, he didn't let me call him Dad
But man I really wanted to
I'd say it like it slipped my mind
But I meant it every damn time
Just hoped that he'd let it slide
'Cause he could see the hurt inside
But he'd just look at me
Kinda smile sad"Boy, you got a father
I ain't your Dad"
He said it soft
But man, it hurt bad
You gave me everything
That he never had
Even if I couldn't
Call you Dad
Yeah, you were the place my heart called home
And you're the best man I've ever known
I never understood
Why you drew that line
It felt like a Dad
Wasn't somethin' I'd ever find
I spent years feeling like
Part of me was gone
Like I never had
What I should've all along
So I kept reaching out
Hoping for something else
Trying to fix the hurt
But never trusting myself
Guess I see it different looking back
You were everything
I thought I lacked
You gave me everything
That he never had
Even if I couldn't
Call you Dad
Yeah, you were the place my heart called home
And you're the best man I've ever known
Yeah I thought I was missin' something owed
But you were there when it mattered most
You gave me more than he ever could
You loved me like he never would
I didn't see it then
But now I do
All I ever needed was you
Was you
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