I'm halfway through an answer

That I don't even believe

I've said the words so often

They're startin' to come with ease

I don't really think about it

By the time I'm hearin' my voice

I'm already sayin"I'm fine"

If they only knew

What it cost me to pretend

They'd stop fuckin' askin' how I've been

Truth is, I ain't okay

I'm barely alive

Got a smile on my face

But a war in my mind

I'm always sayin"I'm fine"

But that's a damn lie

I ain't okay

I'm barely fuckin' alive

Said"I'm fine" so much

It's startin' to feel true

Been sayin' it to everyone else

Now I'm sayin' it to me too

Tryna dodge that question

But it's gettin' hard to ignore

I'm drownin' in the answers

I just don't say anymore

If they only knew

What it cost me to pretend

They'd stop fuckin' askin' how I've been

I ain't okay

I'm barely alive

Got a smile on my face

But a war in my mind

I'm always sayin"I'm fine"

But that's a damn lie

Truth is, I ain't okay

I'm barely fuckin' alive

Don't know how to say the truth

Without soundin' weak

So I bite down on my tongue

And grind my fuckin' teeth

Always carryin' it alone

I guess that's what you do

'Cause it's easier lyin

Than sayin' somethin' true

I ain't okay

I'm barely alive

Got a smile on my face

But a war in my mind

I'm always sayin"I'm fine"

But that's a damn lie

Truth is, I ain't okay

I'm barely fuckin' alive

If they only knew

What it cost me to pretend

They'd stop fuckin' askin' how I've been